Thursday, May 26, 2011

Reality Lately.

Wow so I just looked on here, and I have two half written drafts trying to get back into blogging. I left both unfinished. Now that I really think about it and look at those drafts though... I know why they didn't make it to get posted. They weren't real.

Reality lately... has been hard to say the least. A couple months ago the Lord told me I was going to need to trust Him in this season. As I was praying through what I needed to trust and surrender to Him, I pictured myself jumping. Really that's what Trust/Love/Surrender is... it's jumping and it's such a beautiful risk, that I'm realizing sometimes I can only learn by literally falling on my face.  I wrote this poem a couple months ago when I first moved back home, and it explains life recently. PS = It's a big deal for me to share my writing on here by the way, I have LOTS of  journals that have not been read by anyone but God and I, but I feel though that as I step into a new season of life, which has been hereby named the "healing season". Blogging seems to be a good way for me to process through thoughts and be transparent.

So that being said, this is my poem, be blessed!

Lighter <3

The longer I hold on,
The more comfortable I get.
All this starts to bottle up…
     …. Inside the destitute depths of this tattered soul.

Finally my fingers…
They slip…..
                One,
                   Two,
                      Three…
                                There they go, and there I am.

Bare… Surrendered …. Naked.

I erupt in the friction of it all,
The tears start rolling…
                                One,
                                   Two,
                                        Three…
                                                They fall, and I …

Well, I float …

Lighter.
                Freer.
                                And I realize…

As this baggage falls, a mask does as well…
And I never have to leave His hands.

It’s a process, it’s a journey,
… and grace… it becomes more real each time.

Thank you Father… thank you Father for entrusting a living legacy … to me, to us…
May I/we always be faithful.


1 comment:

  1. Beautiful, Ana! Excited to hear what God's doing in your life and very, very proud of you and who you've become!

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